Living as a diaper slave

 These diapers aren't as absorbent as many other diapers.  I have tried the Walgreens certainty brand out of desperation, and they are very similar.  The TotalDry are definitely better with being more absorbent and soaking up the pee.   The main reason I got these was because I wanted to try out more nighttime diapers.  I wore Abenas but my main problem was that it the tabs weren't the best at staying all night long.  Often I would find that in the morning they had moved so I just didn't feel secure in them anymore.   The cons are the absorbance and they are very thin so it is expected.  I usually only get 3 wettings out of them, but they haven't leaked on me in the 3 nights I have worn them.  I also love the feeling of a nice thick diapers forcing my legs apart so it was disappointing to open up the package and find they were so thin.   However, I might consider wearing them after I use up the ones I have.  They are ...

The past few months, my Master and I have talked about me moving into my own apartment so I can be a better slave without my family's interference.  I have a job and I really can't ask to get paid more because I think that based on my experience, I am making more than fair.  But it isn't enough because I am in school and am working on paying that right now as well.  I have contemplated getting a second job, but I really don't want that and it would add a lot of stress on me. That still leaves money as the problem though.  I have talked about monetizing my blog for a while but google does not allow that for adult blogs and I don't want to change any of my content.  My next idea was to move to Patreon.  I have a lot to figure out yet, but I would definitely have rules that put me on a consistent uploading schedule, probably at least 2 times a week.  I would also add more pictures and videos as a thank you for reading and choosing to view my content ove...

Slave space is different from the normal subspace that most submissives feel when in a scene.  I have never really been in subspace so I can't directly compare the two but I want to describe what slave space is for me. I call it slave space and I am not sure if other people call it the same thing, but I think other slaves feel it as well.  Slave space is a permanent state of mind that my Master and I work towards.  In slave space, I strive to be the perfect slave and my mind revolves around my Master.  I feel safe, comfortable, and dominated while in slave space.  There is something so submissive about me.  I hang on to my Master's every word and it doesn't feel right to do anything without him.  It is when I ask permission to go to bed, or to eat. To get into my slave space, I have to feel dominated.  It is difficult to get me deep into it because I have to work against everything that I "should be."  I can't be independent and strong li...

Right now I live with my parents and my Master lives about an hour away.  One struggle that we have is finding time to actually be together.  I am terrified on my parents finding out that I am a slave again.  They invaded my privacy with my previous Master and they were one of the many challenges we face. We decided that I will announce to my parents that I have a boyfriend after I move out.  But that leaves us struggling for time to be with one another.  And the current world situation isn't helping.  We had our first date about a month ago when my parents were away and it was fantastic.  I just went over to his place and we watched TV and I just spent time in his arms. Many times over the past 7 months, I have asked myself how do I do it.  Its hard to feel close to someone when you have all of these restrictions.  First, I have a list of rules that I follow and a routine with him.  I ask for every change, I ask to go home from work...

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My diapering started with pull-ups and then I transitioned into Abena M-4 diapers.  So for this post I will tell you about using both of them. With pull-ups, I could never get a full wetting in.  I tried once, right when I started, and the pull-up leaked all over the bathroom floor.  It was a mess to clean up.  But while I picked out diapers and waited for them to get to my house, I used pull-ups 24/7 because I didn't have any other options.  The 2 brands I used were Certainty by Walgreens and Assurance by Walmart.  I like the Assurance ones better, they are a lavender color with is fun, and they hold more.  Also, I find that the Certainty pull-ups give me a wedgie, and overall they make me feel very unsafe.  As far as changing goes, just pee is straightforward.  I would use wipes for it, it is just easier to clean anything up.  I never had a problem with diaper rashes because I never had the opportunity to stay in them for long. ...