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Being a Slave

Recently, I have been having problems in my environment and following my Master's orders.  My Master and I haven't met in person yet, partly because of the pandemic right now so it is hard for me to completely trust his judgement on a situation he doesn't know but I've learned that he does truly listen and I have to trust his judgement.  It is one of the things I hate about online relationships but we will be fixing that very soon. Anyway, I've fought with my Master about the right thing to do and that he doesn't truly understand my environment.  It's a difficult situation to be in and I wish I had the right answer.  I am wrong that he doesn't understand, because he really tries to best to understand me.  I need to learn how to step away from our argument and look at the situation from my slave headspace.  When I fight with people, I'm can only think about how worried and stressed out I am, and it's hard to break away from it.  But it isn't...

My journey into diapers

I've known I was a slave for quite some time and diapers interested me but I never actually got the courage to try them until I started talking to my Master.  I started using pull-ups occasionally.  I asked to try going full-time in pull-ups when I got my period in January.  But the problem with pull-ups is that they leak and they couldn't hold a full wetting. The leaking is what inspired me to get a real diaper.  I started with the Abena M4 with the advice of my Master because he knows much more about diapers than I do.  At the start I was too paranoid about leaking to truly enjoy the diaper itself.  Over time, I learned to realize that I truly belong in diapers.  I did have one relapse where I wore underwear for less than a day, but my punishment assured that I would never wear underwear again.  My punishment was to throw out all of my underwear 😉. After I ran out of Abenas, I tried Tenas but the lower cost isn't worth the drop in quality....

Introduction

Hi, I am a slave.  That is who I am as a general picture but I am more than that.  I am a 20 year old healthcare administration college student living in WI.  I also work full time and I wear diapers 24/7/365.  Diapers are my underwear and my bathroom.  And I am working on becoming incontinent. I have the most wonderful Master ever.  Although I can't really call myself a full time slave since I don't live with my Master.  I am a slave at the very core of my being, and I belong in diapers. One thing my Master and I enjoy is assigning me projects to work on.  My last project was researching BDSM and diapers.  I found research for this project challenging since I am not a man, I am not a little, and diapers aren't a punishment or humiliation for me.  So I proposed to my Master that I should start a blog detailing my life as a diaper slave.