Being a Slave

Recently, I have been having problems in my environment and following my Master's orders.  My Master and I haven't met in person yet, partly because of the pandemic right now so it is hard for me to completely trust his judgement on a situation he doesn't know but I've learned that he does truly listen and I have to trust his judgement.  It is one of the things I hate about online relationships but we will be fixing that very soon.

Anyway, I've fought with my Master about the right thing to do and that he doesn't truly understand my environment.  It's a difficult situation to be in and I wish I had the right answer.  I am wrong that he doesn't understand, because he really tries to best to understand me.  I need to learn how to step away from our argument and look at the situation from my slave headspace.  When I fight with people, I'm can only think about how worried and stressed out I am, and it's hard to break away from it.  But it isn't healthy to constantly be in that state of mind.  I need to be forced to step away, either by being forced to sleep or just think about who I am and how I feel.

My slave headspace is worth it though, it balances out my anxious personality with one that is calm and is only concerned with what my Master wants.  That's what being a slave is about for me.  Being a slave completes me in ways that nothing else could, its a way for me to just be free from life's worries and just serve without a second thought.

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