Limits and Trust

One question I was asked recently on Fetlife.com was about what limits I have as a slave.  The short answer to that question is none.  I gave up all limits when I accepted my Master.  Most people think I am crazy when they think that, but I'm not.  My Master has things that he would never ask me to do like something that could land me in jail or something that I would have a strong negative reaction to.  I trust him completely to know me and to make sure nothing bad happens to me.

All of this doesn't mean that I never say no.  I'm not perfect, but I am working on becoming perfect.  I do feel real remorse when I tell my Master no, and I accept whatever punishment he gives me.  We also talk about how to fix whatever is stopping me from submitting to him completely.  I am a new slave that needs constant reminding of who I am and what my place is.  I need my Master to help train my mind to forget everything the world has taught me was taboo like wearing diapers, going around peeing my pants, or standing outside Starbucks and dump a cold coffee in my pants.  But I have a real drive to work on my faults and learn to be a perfect slave to my Master.

My Master has my complete trust.  I do everything he tells me to whether I agree with it or not.  That doesn't mean that I never tell him what I think but it means that I trust that he listens to what I have to say and makes a decision with that in mind.  I have no limits, not because I have no reluctance but because my Master knows me.  He knows every corner of my mind, the dark corners, the bright open rooms, and the library filled with thoughts.

The bond between a Master and a slave is a beautiful thing to experience, and I have a hard time explaining it.  He has my entire soul in his hands and he takes off the weight of the world off my shoulders.  But that is a post for another day.

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